Five of Swords

The Five of Swords Take on Achieving Goals

Today, I did a new moon tarot spread ritual. Being an Aries ♈︎ new moon, the first zodiac in the cycle with a new beginning theme attached to it, I did the spread focusing on the goals I set for myself this year. The last card on the spread was the “message from the Universe“, and I got the Five of Swords.

Five of Swords is about:

conflict resulting in winning but not really (winning at all costs) or being defeated.

Neither is a message I expected to get when asking about achieving my goals.

The card I pulled was from the Tarot of The Divine deck by Yoshi Yoshitani (yep, I finally got the deck after waiting for more than six months). Here, the card shows Anubis, the Egyptian god of the afterlife, holding five scythes while the fertility Goddess Isis is mourning near his feet.

Btw, I feel like it’s worth mentioning that looking at the card only and associating it with The Five of Swords‘ traditional meaning, one might interpret it as Anubis has defeated Iris in the duel. That’s not the case. In the Egyptian mythology, Anubis restored Iris’s husband, Orisis’s, chopped dead body parts, turning him into the first mummy. Therefore, Anubis is more of an ally instead of an opponent. It flipped Five of Swords’ classic deception, which is traditionally drawn as two opposing sides, one side winning and causing a grievance to the other side. Because of this and many other distorted links between the image on the cards and the mythologies behind each of them, I am not sure whether I want to celebrate this deck as the culture-themed tarot deck that I have been waiting for all my tarot-practicing life.

Five of Swords Tarot

Anyway, back to the Five of Swords and my achievement-focused Aries ♈︎ new moon tarot spread. After some mulling-over, I remembered a story from the mega-inspiring book that I read years ago: Happier by Tal Ben Shahar. He started the book with a story of being disappointed after winning a race he put so much effort into because he thought it would make him happy (the classic: I will be happy when *insert future achievements here*), but it didn’t, because achieving goals doesn’t equal being happy/happier.

I guess the Universe is trying to tell me the same thing:

Achieving all my 2021 goals won’t bring me happiness.

Both might work parallelly and possibly interlinked, but I’d be a fool to see them as the same things. This, though I don’t like to admit, is a good reminder for a goal-hungry Virgo like myself.

Now, how do I cultivate happiness, which is the ultimate goal?

New Moon Capricorn Tarot Spread Moon Void Deck

New Moon in Capricorn Tarot Spread

As you might have known, one of my tarot goals is to do a tarot spread for each new and full Moon throughout this year. So here is the first one, in conjunction with the first New Moon, in 2021.

The tarot spread is inspired by Shinjini’s New Moon in Capricorn tarot spread. I am using a freshly smoked-cleansed Stef, the Moon Void Tarot deck which seems to be a perfect fit for Moon-related tarot spread.

1. Significator for my career goal this year:

Eight of Pentacles

Can it be any clearer? Eight of Pentacles is about mastery and hard-work. To reach my career goal for this year, I ought to apply both attributes into my work-life.

Our efforts compound, even when we can’t see the growth.

2. Mindset that’s holding me back:

The Hermit

Err.. I struggled to grasp this one immediately. As a Virgo, being a hermit is like a normal state for me. But Hermit can also be a feeling of being disconnected and alone. This, connected with the action plans, below reminds me that I am not alone and that I have the support that I need to reach this goal.

3. Mindset that I need to adapt instead:

Seven of Wands

I am not at all surprise that Seven of Wands made an appearance. Seven of Wands is the overall energy I want to manifest into my life this year and that includes in the career aspect of it. I need to stand my ground, take up my well-deserved space, show myself and make sure that I am seen.

4. Action plans to reach my career goal:

Page of Pentacles

Crystal! Above anything else, Page of Pentacles for me represent learning. Continues learning and improving my skills at work will bring me closer to the goal.

5. Message from the Moon:

Judgement

It’s reminding me to put the hard-work now without worrying too much if I don’t see the expected result immediately/soon – which is something I am currently struggling with. That I ought to trust the process and the day will come when I will get to reap what I sow.

Also, a message in the book regarding Judgement:

Change is necessary in order to grow and evolve.

Well, that’s about it for me. I need to go back to do some more work tonight to reduce the piling new work-tasks. With that, Happy New Moon in Capricorn everyone! May it sprinkles us with the hard-working Capricorn energy to get a head start to reach the goals we set for ourselves this year.

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My 22 Tarot Goals

  1. Complete the posts on the traditional meanings and keywords of the 78 tarot cards.
  2. Complete the 78 tarot memoir I started last November.
  3. Give free tarot readings to others for practice.
  4. Note down all new and full moon tarot spread in one year.
  5. Practice reading with two and more tarot cards and more tarot spread.
  6. Carry my tarot deck everywhere.
  7. Combine my photography and tarot passions.
  8. Study the connections between tarot cards and arts.
  9. Find real-life depiction of the image on the tarot cards.
  10. Interview a tarot reader and a female tarot deck creator.
  11. Incorporate Oracle into my tarot practice.
  12. Get a professional tarot reading done.
  13. Work and shed more light into difficult cards.
  14. Create stories with more than a single tarot card.
  15. Be a part of and participate actively in the tarot community.
  16. Read and review a tarot book.
  17. Get a tarot tattoo.
  18. Turn the blog to be a bit more tarot-savvy. 
  19. Memorize the keywords of each tarot cards.
  20. Support indie tarot decks created by female artists.
  21. Lean on tarot as a self-care and self-discovery tool.
  22. Support the normalization of tarot.
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Shedding Some Light on The Moon

“What is your association with The Moon card?”

My tarot teacher asked me when we practiced reading tarot with a spread.

I told her that:

“I always feel a strong connection to the moon. I also find The Moon card on most tarot decks attractive”.

She seemed a bit relieved by my answer, before going on explaining that tarot readers have divided perceptions about The Moon card; some consider it as a good card, while others find it difficult.

I looked at the card on the spread. We were using the Rider Waite Smith tarot deck. There a few things going on for sure. The lobster, the howling dogs, the towers with the dark sky draping the background. But nothing calls out to be as a problematic.

Yes, the moon can be emotional, but so are we, are we not?

I put my thoughts aside and continued reading the spread. I interpreted The Moon as I needed to wait for a whole month before being able to see any progress.


The Moon card (Pisces) itself is about intuition.

The Moon


It’s time to let the moon illuminate our dark side. For us to embrace our shadow-self, to go deeper inside, in the effort of understanding ourselves better.


The other day, I meditated under the full moon on Aries. Again a homework from my teacher. I took out all The Moon cards my all the tarot decks (excluding Rider Waite Smith tarot deck, as these days I only use it as a point of reference) I owned to contemplate more on it.

The depiction in The Spacious Tarot deck is my favourite. The card is dominated by a large moon – which reminds me of the time I went to Uluru and saw the moon up close point. It also has two mushrooms on it, which reminds me of The Lovers tarot card.

After spending sometime with The Moon tarot cards, I journaled about it – a whole three pages in my Moleskin. I am not ready to share it here yet. Thought at this rate, I have a feeling that I will eventually share it with you but for now, do know it has been cathartic.

That night, I honoured the moon’s energy by drinking Lavender tea and going to bed with Selenite charging me from the bedside table.

New Moon Sagittarius Tarot Spread

New Moon in Sagittarius Tarot Spread

I am using the New Moon in Sagittarius spread created by Sarah of The Curious Cardslinger.

1.Where would I most benefit from a change of perspective?

Judgement

Well, this was not a surprise; I am, after all a judge-y Virgo. Being judgmental and self-critical are my jam. And lately, my self-talk tends to be damaging. Maybe it’s because of work pressure or just an accumulation of 2020 fatigues; the bottom line is I haven’t been nice to myself lately. So yes, changing the perspective on how I see myself and slowly working on self-acceptance would definitely benefit me during this new moon.

2.How can I see this area of my life more clearly?

Wheel of Fortune

Each moment is temporary, focus on the things you can control. And we can’t control everything. How do we move through change and meet our discomforts with understanding and joy?

The Wheel of Fortune is inviting me to remember when this current life that I complain a lot about was the life I wished to have. And now that I have it, I should be grateful for it. It also reminds me that things will get better, the things that I struggle with at the moment will be the things I will achieve in the future.

3. What lesson do I need to learn right now?

Four of Cups

The book’s interpretation of the card:

Complacency and boredom, a warning to come back to the present.

But I see it as being tired, needing a break. A clear sign to amp up my self care practice. Also, the cocktail glass sign at the back beckoned me to have a drink right after I finish writing this. Oh well, if the card said so, I shall follow the advice.

4.What opportunities can this open up for me?

The Magician

Manifestation! Creating my reality my way. Of course! I have been counting my workdays for the year. I can’t wait to take a break, recharge and start planning and manifesting my 2021.

5. How can I invite more fun into my life?

Five of Cups

Though I used the Moon Void Tarot deck when I did the spread, the Five of Cups in the Everyday Witch Tarot deck came into my mind as soon as I saw it. I think I have indulged in collective Covid negativity too long and too much that I stopped being grateful. Which to be fair, is admittedly a more challenging activity to cultivate amid feeling burned out. But I guess that is why now it is more critical than ever start using it as my daily tool again.

Meanwhile, interpreting purely from image of The Five of Cups on the Moon Void Tarot deck alone, I got the idea that having more fun for me might involve some kind of hobby — be it cooking (kitchen counter), painting (spilled ink) or photography (framed night sky).

6. Where should my attention be focused at this time?

Seven of Swords

The Seven of Swords can be interpreted as leaving a situation or even fleeing from a problem that I am not happy about. I think this card got to do more with work and yes, I can’t wait for my Christmas break next week.


I find it interesting that both the Four and Five of Cups showed up. Also that I pulled three major arcana cards and lastly, there was no Wands nor Pentacles suit.

Headache on New Moon in Scorpio

Every new moon (and full moon) Natta, the tarot teacher always reminds us to meditate on the corresponding cards related to the moon’s astrology. I never really understand how to meditate with tarot cards, so I usually skip this part of the homework.

Today, I gave it a try.

Pulling out The High Priestess (new moon) and the Death (Scorpio) cards from The Spacious Tarot deck, I sat on my work desk for a while, staring at these two cards. Nothing came to mind, except that I had to take Paracetamol because I have a terrible headache. So I did. Then I slathered my face with mud and made myself a pot of mulled wine tea, before coming back to my desk, looking intently into the images of these cards.

Nothing happened, and the headache is still there. I opened the journal to write, and nothing came into my mind.

I mindless flipped over the old entries and found one which I wrote on New Moon in Scorpio three years ago. I ranted about having a bad day then, and I noted down that I had a headache too.

Is this a thing? To have a lingering headache on New Moon in Scorpio? If yes, how do I unsubscribe?